Mark 6: 52 for they
considered not of the loaves for their heart was hardened
We tend to think of a hard heart, as it was seen in Pharaoh,
being in direct rebellion of YHWH’s
will, but as we read through the gospels we see Yeshua often speaking of the
lack of faith and perverse thinking of His own young apostles.
As a side note: yes the apostles where young. At fifteen
they would either have been chosen to be students of a teacher (Rabbi) or begun
to learn the trade of their fathers. Yeshua called His disciples from those who
had been passed over by others as they were apprenticed to their fathers already;
also showing they were over fifteen years old. When they come unto Capernaum we
see Yeshua providing for the temple tax from the mouth of a fish; yet He only
provides for Himself and Peter. The tax was for every male over age twenty so
we can conclude that Peter was the only disciple of age at that time; despite
our many paintings showing the disciples as middle age men. (Matthew 17:24-27,
Exodus 30:13 & 38:26-27)
Coming back to the subject of a hardened heart in a true
disciple, the apostles were not like Pharaoh in the sense of thinking they
themselves were Gods and therefore had no need to listen to the command of
another. What was the same; they were looking at the things done by Yeshua
through uncircumcised eyes and mind which while seeing what happened were separated
from seeing and understanding the why.
Have you ever asked why God did or said or acted a certain
way? Have you ever been told we are not supposed to question God? We can ask
why in two very different ways; the first is from a desire to understand which
is scriptural, the second is an accusation which is foolish. God does encourage
us to trust him and to believe in Him but He never tells use to not try to
understand Him. In fact it is the
opposite; we are told to ask and depend as a child looking to a father. (Proverbs
29:18, 1 Samuel 3:1, Amos 8:11-12)
A part of the deception that drew Adam and Eve’s sin from
their heart to manifestation was that when they became a self their eyes would
be opened. When this lie had brought the separation of an existence powered
only by the flesh (death) we lost the life and light of YHWH’s breath in us.(Genesis
3:5-7)
Our eyes and ears and mouth and heart and even our
procreation became covered by the flesh; shrouded in a darkness that occupied
itself with those things that were of men and not of God. In this state of
death all consideration of all things can only see how the self can be
sustained, lifted up, rewarded, and provided for by them. (Matthew 16:23, Acts
7:51, Exodus 12:48, Joshua 5:7, Jeremiah 9:25-26, Ezekiel 44:7-9)
The miracles and words of our Lord that have been witnessed
to us from His apostles have not been given that we would know the things He
did in His earthly life, but instead each has been carefully chosen by the
Spirit that we may learn of the life and light of YHWH which He has redeemed us
into.
It would not be until after Yeshua died, resurrected, ascended,
and sent the Spirit to make us one with YHWH’s life that the apostles could see
much of what He had taught them.(John 16:13)
When we consider the loaves from the Spirit what do we see
with circumcised eyes? We see what seemed to be the sustenance of a child
placed into the Hands of our master and offered up to the table of YHWH,
consumed by YHWH becoming one with Him, then being given forth to a multitude
as sustenance for all, not only filling all who partook but with excess beyond.
We see that the manna, and the loaves, and the Bread of Life our Master Yeshua
are given from heaven not the earth and have no bounds to the amount they can
be sustenance for.
There is a great deal
more that can be learned about the life we have been made partakers of from
this and all things witnessed of in the scriptures; if we are not looking at
only the earthly gain to be had from YHWH. If we lose our life for His sake we
will find His life as one in us, but if we seek to gain life by our own flesh
we will die.
